Why me?

I'm here in this eternal battle
why me?, why am i the one who isnt loved by anyone
why do i always have to ask this
I never get it, am i so hard to love
Is it so hard to see inside me
Am i so disgusting you all have to turn away
Am i so horrible you cant look at me
Am i so god damn ugly
I get it, i really do, its my own fault
I hope too much
It's no wonder people dont like sitting with me,
no wonder they dont want to be my friend
no wonder i never have someone to hold
"You'll meet someone"
Well, i always think i do, but why would they be interested
they never are
I'll never meet anybody who wants me
After all this is me we're talking about
I'll never find anyone,
and i'll never be found
coz i dont want to be looked for anymore
i dont want to keep hoping
i dont want to keep crying
I'll have no one
I wont have anyone,
because of this the world doesnt have me
I'm feeling empty
I'll be happy
but i definately wont be me.